How to enjoy the field when you don't?

I retired from the mil a few years back (ISSM/ISSO) 15+ years IT. Been trying to wrap my head around going back into the field (just to do something) but I cannot for the life of me find passion in it anymore.

I am a very "outdoors" person and sitting behind a desk for 6+ hours really destroyed my mental health over the years (Major Depression/Anxiety). Every time I think about "IT" I get this feeling of dread and I …

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